A Little Bit of Insight

     Hello, everyone! This isn't going to be like my regular posts. Today I felt the need to write a letter to the girl I once was, and I felt like one of you would need to see it. I don't know who needs it, or if anyone will really be helped by it. If you are helped by it and you are willing to share, please let me know and why. Mainly because I'm curious, but partly because I feel like it can help me to. My email is saxophonebabe1@gmail.com if you would rather message me privately instead of commenting publicly. So, here we go.

Dear Former Krysta,

     I'm so sorry that you are going through what you are. I know that life is so hard and complicated, and you just want to curl up in a corner. I know that most days, you look at yourself most days and wonder if anyone will ever look at you and believe you are beautiful. And every once in a while, you do hear it from someone, but you don't believe it because "there's no way anyone could like someone like me". I know that you hate getting your picture taken, because you feel ugly and fat, and you definitely don't want to save that forever in a picture. I know that you hate the fact that you always feel hungry, and no matter what you do, you can never seem to get even a small amount of that annoying fat off. You are in so much pain; pain that you recognize, and pain you don't even know that you are suffering yet.

     But let me tell you something. You are beautiful, and you are amazing. Really, you are. You just don't know it yet. Keep trying and never give up or give in. There is so much that you are going to accomplish, and you are going to be so much happier! You are going to overcome this, and you are going to get a lot of help, love, and encouragement on the way. Just ask. There is a lot more love for you out there than you can comprehend. I still can't comprehend it now! And you are going to touch the lives of so many people because of what you do. And they are going to inspire and motivate you. And it's not going to be easy at first. You're going to have your ups and downs, and you are going to have days you just want to give up. But you have it in you to accomplish your goals and achieve your dreams.

     As you start your journey, never forget that this is for you. Not for family, not for friends, not for a mission. YOU. Because you deserve it and you are worth it. There is an incredible person deep inside of you that is just itching to come out of hiding, and only you can let her shine. And I know you do, because I am her. But I started with you. I am using your experiences now to make sure that I never let those things be a part of my life again. Please don't give up. I am counting on you. Stay strong. Anything is possible.

Sincerely,

Me